Well damn, that time has come when everyone around me is becoming an adult. I always used to think when I was little that this day would never come that even being 16 would take forever. Then BAM, you find yourself worrying about money, trying to find a job, growing to grown up parties, dealing with more complicated relationships, and finding yourself surrounded by miserable people. I take it back the adults were correct, we should never have wished to grow up, why on earth would any child want to do that? But that's exactly what we did, and now that it's official we don't know what to do with ourselves.I'm still 17, I have till next year before the big number, however my boyfriend just turned 18 this weekend. He's the first person close to me to turn the big one eight, and the weirdest thing? It felt completely normal. But this is what people do, they count down their birthdays, look forward to reaching the next big number worth a big celebration. Then you realise you're only counting down your days, and that's not worth celebrating is it?
Just like many other young adults I have a part time job while studying for my A levels. A job that I have grown to hate, and will have to do the inevitable of resigning to my first job (a scary thought). Like many others, I change my mind on what I want to do. Right now I am thinking of doing a higher apprenticeship when I leave school, but the next 12 months will be slow till then. After that, who knows? we say things that we hope, we all have our dreams, but they change often and then you don't know what you want.
At the end of the day, make sure you do something you love. Don't worry about money, no matter how little you have, because that's not what matters, your happiness is, and you happiness shouldn't be determined by your wealth or the happiness of others. Make decisions good and bad, and don't regret them as you chose them for a reason. Just remember this is your only life so do whatever you want with it.
Good luck!
Faux Furr
